Tea and Time

After my latest post about time, I wanted to end on a more comic note about time as well.
So please enjoy this clip from “Alice Through The Looking Glass” where the Mad Hatter and his friends are having a bit of fun with Time. Enjoy!

 

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Time

Time.

A concept that dates back to the beginning of everything.
To the beginning of time itself, as one would say.

Ever since I was a little girl, the concept of time kept me wondering.
When someone I dearly loved would die, people would often tell me that “it has been their time to go”.  Which I never quite understood.
I would visualise it for myself. We would all have some sort of… timer. It could be floating above us, or imprinted on our foreheads or such. No one would be able to see it, not even the person itself.

As I got older, I stuck with this… image that I had. That we all had a timer, and that some choices could effect that timer. If you were doing risky things and you weren’t being safe for example, you would have less time. If you would cross the street without looking, you would only have a few more minutes left on your timer, while if you would have looked and stopped, you might have had 30more years for example.

When I was a teen I fell in love with the music of the band Nickelback, especially with “savin’ me”. I loved the clip very much, because it does show how I’ve been looking at time almost my whole life. I’m sure that most people have seen the clip, but it shows my examples. In the clip, a young man gets saved from being hit by a bus by another man. From then on, he is able to see the time a person has left above their head. At one point -and this one really stuck with me- he sees an old woman being pushed into an ambulance, he sees her timer counting down until it reaches zero, meaning that she died…

 

I had a lot of people whom I loved dearly die… and had a very hard time coping with it. I couldn’t understand why they had to go. Why that young?  Why like that?

I got more and more mad about it, upset. Bitter. I thought of time as a thief, something evil. Just like we often say ‘we have too little time’ ‘time is short’ ‘the hands of time stop for no one’ and so forth…

But a few months, around May 2016, my vision completely changed.
As a few of you might remember, I am a huge Alice in Wonderland addict. I collect tons of stuff about it and love love love the book(s) and the movies, especially the Tim Burton ones. So in May/June I went to see the latest movie ‘Alice Through The Looking Glass’, for those of you who haven’t seen it yet -shame on you by the way! 😉 – the story is that the Mad Hatter (played by Johnny Depp) is dying and all of his Underland friends are desperate, so they use the caterpillar to go and get Alice (played by Mia Wasikowska) and bring her back. She is the only one that can save him, but to do so she must go back in time, using the chromosphere. A device owned by Time (played by Sacha Baron Cohen) that allows you to travel through the ‘sea of time’, and thus go back in time.

I won’t tell any more about the movie since I don’t want to spoil it and encourage everyone to go see it yourselves (it’s on dvd!).
In the movie, at some point Time says to Alice: “You might not change the past, but you might learn something from it.” which is very true , if you ask me.
I see it in my personal life everyday. People saying they don’t want to end up like their parents, dreading it, fearing it most of all, and then doing exactly that.
People dwelling on the past , a mistake I often made too, instead of looking forward and seeing the brand new chances that you get every day. Make the most of the time you have left, however little that may be.

But what truly changed my view about time is something that Alice says when she says goodbye to Time. In the beginning and throughout the movie, Alice often shows how much she dislikes time. That time is a thief, and a villain.
But after she meets Time in Underland, as a half man, half clock, she changes her mind.
So when she says goodbye to Time she says:
“I used to think Time was a thief, stealing everything I loved. But I see now that you give before you take. And every day is a gift. Every hour, every minute, every second.”
This part actually left me in tears… because throughout the whole movie I knew exactly what she felt, since she already lost her dad when she was younger and now facing the possibility of losing her dearest friend Hatter… I think that many people can relate.

A more recent movie about -among other things- time is “Collateral Beauty”, with Will Smith, Kate Winslet, Keira Knightley, Helen Mirren, … a truly heartbreaking beautiful movie with a great cast. In this movie , Will Smith’s character is coping with the loss of his little girl, and his business partners and close friends are worrying about his wellbeing. They find out that Will Smith writes letters, to Time, Death and Love. The rest of the movie I won’t spoil.

 

It’s the principe. Imagine that just like Alice and Will Smith’s character you would be able to talk to Time, that it would be some sort of person. What would you say?
Would you assault him/her? Would you cry? Would you plead? Would you hug? Would you forgive?

I ask myself that question from time to time.
Would I be able to forgive Time for all the hurt he has caused by taking my loved ones so soon from me? Or would I thank him for all the beautiful moments I’ve had? The long friends, the lovers?

I think I will never really know, not until I would be face to face with Time itself.

Like I’ve said, Time has caused me quite a lot of pain, but I also had a lot of beautiful moments.

All I’ve learnt from those stories, those movies, … is that none of us know how much or how little time we have left in this life, so I try to make the most out of it. By doing what I always try to do: move forward.

Although sometimes I stop and take some time to reflect. Am I happy doing what I do?  Do I still see my closest friends enough? Then after reflecting, I go back on moving forward.  And if I am going through a though time I always remember the words “this too shall pass”.

Time is fluid, and vivid. It’s always moving.

So to all my lovelies:
Cherish your special moments.
Take them in.
And make the most of the time you have left, because none of us know how much time we have.

– Britt

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Sometimes I wonder… 

Sometimes I spend my days wondering, worrying.  Trying to understand why it seems that bad things always seem to happen to good people. From time to time it really baffles me.

I know of so many couples that always did and do their best to be there for everyone, always share the little things they had, were always there when anyone needed them, lived humble, work(ed) hard,…  and yet bad things keep happening.

To be more personal, my fiancé and I are in the same situation.

We both work hard, I combine working and studying at a university -which, I’m not going to lie, is really hard- to give us a better future, to give future children of ours a better future. I do my own household, try to cook on a daily basis, be a good daughter, daughter-in-law, granddaughter,… but my days just seem to flash by without me even realizing what happened. My days seem to be too short for all the things that need to be done.

And then my fiancé got fired from his job… he has been sitting at home since the  15th of December….

meanwhile other things have happened, unexpected costs, and we are trying our very best to plan a budget friendly wedding, seeing what we can do ourselves,…

But to be honest… it’s a really hard time. It has been even before my love lost his job…

I’m doing my very best, we both are but sometimes it all just seems to slip through my fingers and everything seems so unfair.

Even though this whole post might seem sad, I remain hopeful. Things will get better. I’m confident in that.

It’s only a matter of time, and effort. But I can do this, we can do this. We will get through this.

– Britt

It’s Been A Long Time

It’s been a long time since I last posted something here.

I’ve been thinking about my life a lot, things I can’t wait to tell all of you about but can’t. Not yet.
I’ve been making decisions and choices.
I’ve tried to get things straight.
Make our apartment a home.
I’ve made decisions that will change my life forever.
I’m not a child anymore, no longer a girl.
I am a strong, independent woman.
I am an adult.
free, to make my own choices.
free , to live my own life.
I’m grateful to have my Love by my side, always supporting me.
Sometimes being the voice of reason.
I can’t wait to start living my life the way I always wanted to.
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If Love Is An Ocean Wide

Ever since I’ve been in a relationship with my love, I finally learned what a real long term relationship is.
It’s work, sometimes even a lot of work.
It’s patience, a lot of it.
But most of all: It’s being able to trust each other.
To be faithful to each other.
And most important of all: To love each other.

That’s why I think we are such a perfect couple.
We spend every day (except Thursday) together.
And we love spending time together.

Sometimes, I get a bit irritated when we’re just laying in my bed, doing absolutely nothing for over half an hour.
I admit, sometimes I easily get bored, and no one likes being bored.
So then I can be a bit grumpy.
Luckily he knows that as soon as he takes me in his arms and hugs me, or kisses my neck or lips, my bad mood’s over.

He just melts the anger/irritation away.
His arms are my safe haven.

There are days that I never want to end.
Sometimes, even over 24 hours seems to little.

This doesn’t mean that there haven’t been moments that I just wanted to get up and walk away.
But I simply can’t.
My heart even breaks when I simply think about how it would be to live without him.
Without us.
The answer is simple: I couldn’t.
I couldn’t live without him anymore.
He is my heart, my soul, my all.

I love him more than life itself.
I love everything about us.
Our silly talks sometimes (yes, we sometimes speak in silly voices, which I find adorable!).
Our random ‘fights’ (which I always win, duh!).
Our trips to Ghent, Brussels, Bruges (I’ll tell you about that one later 😉 ), Ostend, …
Everything.

I could go on and on about this, but instead I’ll just show you by a song of ‘the afters’ called “ocean wide”.
It shows exactly what I mean.

Enjoy.

Some Time Ago…

Some time ago I fell in love with you.
Your smile easily won me over all of a sudden.
Maybe it was your charm?

I can still remember that laugh.
My heart immediately skipped a beat.
Darling, my dear, how come I didn’t notice that before?

Sometimes I still wonder how I could’ve been so reckless, 
so blind.
Not noticing the beauty that you are before.

Yet you patiently waited, you stood by.
You kept waiting.
Hoping.

You had always been there, as long as I can remember. 
Hiding in the shadows.
Standing in the background.

You knew your time would come one day.
And how I adore you now.
I couldn’t imagine life without you anymore.

Your voice is the only sound that can always soothe me.
I love the sound of your laugh.
The dimples you get when you smile.

You’re cute, beautiful, adorable.
I love you to bits, so much.
Baby you’re my all.

I still don’t understand how I didn’t notice that so long ago,
and how hard I’m falling for you now.
You truly are my obsession.

You’re all I can think about.
All I dream about.
Truly a dream come true.

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