Silently she lay beside him in the bed.
She has been for the last thirty minutes.
Her back facing him.
His hand slide over her arm, gently.
But she just couldn’t take it right now.
“Don’t…” she softly whispered.
She could feel the hesitation in his movement.
But he decided to stop.
So they just awkwardly lay next to each other in silence.
After a while his hand came back, searching for hers.
He tried to fit his fingers in the spaces between hers.
She pushed his hand away before sitting up in the bed.
Her head in her hands.
She could hear his breath change.
He had no idea what was going on.
She could feel her heart break right there.
Suddenly she couldn’t keep it in anymore.
Tears streamed down her cheeks.
Like rivers running wild.
He instantly sat up in the bed, looking at her shaking shoulders as she silently cried her heart out.
“oooh baby…” he said before wrapping his arms tightly around her.
He held her closer than ever.
“my poor little sweet beautiful baby…”
Her heart broke even more.
How could life be so cruel and beautiful at the same time?
It felt as if everything had been crashing down on her for the past four weeks.
The only thing that made it more or less bearable was that look in his eyes.
Those whispers in her ear telling her how much he loved her.
She know he did. She knows he does. As does she.
So why had it become so hard all of a sudden?
The sobbing got more intense.
There was sound now.
The sound of someone who had just broken.
“I feel as if I’m sucking the life out of you.
I feel such a burden sometimes.
I’m so hopelessly broken.
I’m so lost. So hopeless.
Things have been so hard lately.
You have been the only thing that was good.
That is good.
You’re the one keeping me from hurting myself again.
Your love is saving me.” she slowly said, sobbing at the same time.
Her cheeks all wet with salt tears.
He took her by her chin and turned her to face him.
“Our love baby. Our love.
I love you. That’s the only thing that matters.
That’s the most important.
That’s all you need to know.
You don’t know yourself anymore?
You’re beautiful, sweet, caring, loving…
You’re the best thing that ever happened to me.
You’re my true love.
My heart and soul. My reason for living.
But you know when you’re even more beautiful?
When you smile. So please baby, love of mine, do smile.
Don’t hide the beauty of your smile.”
Lovingly he wiped away her tears.
After doing so he left his hand on her cheek.
“I love you”, he whispered.
“and you’re not broken, not at all. You may have some cracks, but don’t we all?
No one is without scars.
And I even love you with them.
You take away mine, so please, let me take away yours.
Let me bent you.”
She took in a deep breath.
“It may not look like it,” she said, while looking down to her lap wet from her tears “but I do love you as well. So damn much.”
He laughed, and she couldn’t help laughing as well.
It was a rather faint laugh, but it was a laugh.
He looked into her eyes deeply.
“We’re going to make it love. Our love is going to make it. Have faith.
Life will get better.
And if it won’t, I’ll always be here to hold you, listen to you, cheer you up when it gets too much.
I’ll never let you down.
That’s a promise.”