It’s been months since my last post, I’m aware.
Believe me when I say I would have loved to write down my feelings, and whats going on…
But the truth is, ever since people from my neighbourhood found this blog that was and still is so precious to me and made fun of everything on it… my blog hasn’t truly felt safe anymore…
It feels violated.
I don’t know who else is reading along, is it just my faithful followers, my wordpress friends? People I love and care about?
Or are those from my “real life” still around? lurking to see if they can find some juicy story that they can exploit?
How safe is it for me, to post things on here?
Will people read it behind my back? make fun of it? talk to my family or friends about it?
I have so many things I want to talk about… that I NEED to talk about.
Get them off my chest.
Even if no one reads them
comments on them or even cares about them…
I just need to write them down.
A few times I was here, writing those things down but ended up deleting them in the end… because I got scared.
I hate it.
My blog was my own space, my escape. With all these lovelies following me, the sweet comments, the good friends…
I hope that soon, I’ll feel safe enough to start writing here again…
Because I really miss this..
I miss this place.
I put so much time, effort and tears in creating this safe space.
This virtual world.
I’m not planning on getting it taken away so easily from me…
I’m a lover, not a fighter, but I’ll fight for what I love…