Sometimes I spend my days wondering, worrying. Trying to understand why it seems that bad things always seem to happen to good people. From time to time it really baffles me.
I know of so many couples that always did and do their best to be there for everyone, always share the little things they had, were always there when anyone needed them, lived humble, work(ed) hard,… and yet bad things keep happening.
To be more personal, my fiancé and I are in the same situation.
We both work hard, I combine working and studying at a university -which, I’m not going to lie, is really hard- to give us a better future, to give future children of ours a better future. I do my own household, try to cook on a daily basis, be a good daughter, daughter-in-law, granddaughter,… but my days just seem to flash by without me even realizing what happened. My days seem to be too short for all the things that need to be done.
And then my fiancé got fired from his job… he has been sitting at home since the 15th of December….
meanwhile other things have happened, unexpected costs, and we are trying our very best to plan a budget friendly wedding, seeing what we can do ourselves,…
But to be honest… it’s a really hard time. It has been even before my love lost his job…
I’m doing my very best, we both are but sometimes it all just seems to slip through my fingers and everything seems so unfair.
Even though this whole post might seem sad, I remain hopeful. Things will get better. I’m confident in that.
It’s only a matter of time, and effort. But I can do this, we can do this. We will get through this.