Life Changing Influences

Hey darlings
So today I stayed home all day, since I got sick yesterday evening and spend most of the night and early morning besides my good friend, the toilet.
Indeed, stomach issues, -insert sarcastic ‘yay’ here- , took me long enough to get it too, considering I spend everyday with sick people all around me: On the train, at home, at school, on the bus, …
Seems like the weekend started early for me, since I’ll be home tomorrow as well.
I don’t mind it that much though, got to sleep loooong -which felt great, considering most of the time the most sleep I can get is about 7 hours-, the thing that I do hate about stomach shizzles is that you can’t eat anything. Well… not all the yummy stuff at least. No bananas, no apples, no orange juice, no veggies, no sweets, no cookies, you can drink cola but only without the bubbles, … 
So the only thing I ate today was a toast with some cheese on it -thank god I loooooove cheese! I’m addicted to it- and about three yoghurts, natural with a little hint of sugar.
I spend my day in my pajamas, watching the last new episodes of “how I met your mother”‘s season eight online, did some facebooking -since I felt lonely, sick people get that sometimes- and then I realized: I had lots and lots of time now. That I needed to spend in bed, resting, so why wouldn’t I rest, while catching up on my ‘The Vampire Diaries’ episodes? (I have seen as far as season 3, but since it had been too long that I’ve seen an episode, I decided to go back to the beginning, which is season 1, duh).
And well… watching all these episodes, I remember why it’s one of my favorite series ever.
‘The Vampire Diaries’ and ‘One Tree Hill’, best series ever. Of course, I’ve watched others as well, but well… they didn’t affect me that much. ‘One Tree Hill’ has taught me much about myself, about dealing with certain things, friendship, love, life, death, … I’m such a Peyton. That’s also the reason why I stopped watching the show after season six, when Lucas and Peyton left One Tree Hill with their baby girl, Sawyer. Since , without those two, ‘One Tree Hill’ just simply isn’t ‘One Tree Hill’ anymore. In French, the show’s even called ‘Les Frères Scott’ which means ‘The Scott brothers’ , so you just can’t kick one of the brothers out. But I’m not going to rattle on about this matter, ’cause I could just go on and on and on.
I loved and still love that show so much. I loved it so much, that I even looked up Peyton’s ‘100 songs to save your life’ list and got all the songs together to put on my iPod. As well as her podcasts. And I kept every quote that was ever used in the show as well.
I even have one hanging above my bed.
If I remember it correctly, it even was one of the first posts I ever posted on my blog.
Take A Look In The Mirror , this is the blog I’m talking off. 
It really is a beautiful text, which gave me so much strength and hope when I had lost all hope.
It may sound stupid, but I believe that those kind of shows can actually change someone’s life, I know they have for me.
One Tree Hill has thought me how to let someone in, what true friends are and how to maintain those friendships, so many things.


‘The Vampire Diaries’ on the other hand is of course totally different. It’s much less a show from which I can learn, although there you learn the value of family. Friends as well. And true love, no matter what the haters say. 
And of course, since I’m obsessed with vampires and pretty much anything paranormal, I adore all the vampires, ghosts, witches and werewolves in the series.
And the music, the music is so great. Just like with One Tree Hill, I have all the music up until now. 
Once you’ve seen the series, you can link the songs to the feelings, the part of the episodes, which gives the songs and the lyrics a second meaning, besides their primal one.
So that’s why, sometimes, when I hear a certain song, I get all mooshy (which means ‘romantic’ or ’emotional’ -either good or bad- in my own invented, imaginary language) so I could be sitting on the train, staring out of the window and suddenly smile like an idiot, or bite my lip as tears are starting to fill my eyes…
Yeah, I’m pretty emotional. Over-emotional one would sometimes even say.
A religion teacher of mine once said that it’s what makes me so special. That I’m able to feel for anything, or anyone.
Even though I hate it most of the times. Since people don’t look at it the way my teacher did, they just see me crying or having ‘moodswings’ and call me a drama queen instead, or even worse: an emo. I’ve been called an emo lots and lots of times, you wouldn’t believe.
Just because I’m emotional, sensitive and most of the times wear black -I can’t help that I love the color, I find it beautiful. Mysterious, dark and it stands for so many different things for me. Black like the night, terrifying for most people, but it’s the time when I feel alive the most. Black,the color of death. And If you have read my blog a couple of times, you know that death is a very sensitive matter for me. (Sweet DreamsReminisce Of Memories, …). Black is mysterious. To me it’s neither a happy, nor a sad color. It’s comforting. Safe. And I look beautiful in black, with my golden blonde hairs and pale blue eyes with just a hint of grey in them. 
I love, what most people don’t, which is why I love ‘The Vampire Diaries’ so much. I read the books as well. Have been for the past four years or so.
They keep my fantasy and vampire obsession alive.
And just like the series, they never leave me unsatisfied behind. 
They are great, in so many ways. 
I know that not everyone likes the series, nor the books, to everyone their own taste of course.
But to me, it’s heaven.
And with all this talking about it, I just decided to watch some more episodes.
See you soon my dears, hope you had/are having a great day!



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